Mayday
Thought about this play on words with today’s date several times. A call for help. The first day of May.
Today was more productive. I recorded a new video after teaching. My Sunday newsletter is nearly done. I got some groceries after which I took a hot shower then made a large margarita.
I’m trying to make our Fridays a little special, so the days don’t blur together. We had chirashi last week. This week we had frozen margaritas and fancy salads with a creamy dressing I made with avocado, soaked pepitas, cilantro, lime, and seasonings.
I still don’t feel like I get enough done, but I played Animal Crossing anyway. I think I’ve felt that way for decades now. I’m guessing the trauma contributes; the feeling that I must earn my worthiness again and again. The feeling like I’m dangerous and terrible unless I offset it by productivity.
No haikus tonight, but I am working on a poem!