Sunshine too Blithe
Rain & Sun - March 16, 2013 - Portland, OR
I lost a good friend yesterday, but couldn't really much beyond a daily poem. I'm sure I'll move on to feeling anger, but for now I just feel such a deep and profound grief. When I try to take too deep a breath it as though the pain rushes in.
Yesterday it was cold, grey, and chilly, which seemed fitting. This morning there was still grey, misty clouds clinging to the trees but by this afternoon the sun had burned off the clouds and it was gloriously sunny. I found myself feeling angry at that, feeling some understanding of Auden's Funeral Blues in a desire for cold, dark weather to match the hurt. A sunny spring day, resplendent with flowers, seems jarring.
In grief I find the
Sunshine to be too bright, too
Blithe for the moment
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